Air Adoptee
By Carrie Anne Tocci
LISTEN TO THE AUTHOR READING:
I
On a seven-seater plane,
the air is mine. Below,
the ocean claims blood
while the sun demands:
my birth reimagined; a boy
and girl unsevered by truth,
above the Leeward Islands—
an air pocket startles with
the volcano behind me.
I say farewell to Montserrat,
heartened, the man next to me holds
my hand—fatherly and in kind:
like the father who confirmed I am his—
like Dad who knows he’s mine.
II
On my way to Puerto Rico,
on a maternal line,
purled in by my
blood sister, we are:
the daughter kept,
the daughter surrendered,
above the Bermuda Triangle,
thinking in couplets
when the plane drops,
we share a single thought:
We can’t die together.
Our mother doesn’t refer to me
as hers; doesn’t know
I am with her daughter,
the one she swaddled.
She doesn’t know the woman
who swaddled me, my mom;
she knits like my sister,
she knits for my sister’s daughter.
III
No need for oxygen masks.
We keep breathing,
trusting double-sided stitch,
we test a new pattern.
IV
With her husband and daughter,
my sister enjoys legroom.
I sit where I can afford
(next to another teacher),
a mom enjoying a quick caesura;
during the last bounce, we hold hands.